Monday, May 02, 2005

Relationships
Well can any relationship be PERFECT?
There is always something you would change, or wish differently. How do you know when what you have is good enough...
Should anything just be good enough?
It doesn't mean you love a person less or more because of one trait or aspect of the relationship which is 'undesirable' But when should you draw the line at what is 'FIXABLE' and what you would have to live with should you choose this relationship for Everlasting.
I decided that there was some area's that needed fixing in my own relationship and decided if you need something done, and done right, do it yourself. I am not much of an initiator, and to any who know me, know this to be commonly true, not because I can't or don't want too, just usually would rather go with the flow and let things happen as the fates ordained. So this past weekend was an experiment. I initiated and made things happen, got things done like I have never done in my relationship before and I was met with first pleasure, enjoyment, gratitude and then suspicion.
I got why the change? What's up? Something happen? Didn't help that the week previously my husband had been away the whole time in a different city. So then I felt he was pushing me away, for he didn't understand what was going on, why the change.
It's like this in any thing. You dress up rather then your normal casual workware and people ask "What you have a job interview today or something?" or you do anything different with your hair and people automatically suspect you must have a reason other then just feeling like it. It's like no one ever expects anyone to do anything out of the ordinary without ulterior motives. What a sad time we live in.
No wonder in the past anyone 'different' has been ridiculed by society, if the general public is so stunned by a person simple changing the way they do their hair, then how are they going to handle a person outside the 'rules' of society norm.
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