Weight Loss

Well I was scheduled for an operation on the 23rd of January, 2006 to have my reproductive system fixed. My husband and I have been trying for almost three years to start a family and have had no success, I haven't even ovulated in that time. So the Doctor told me that I had to get my blood pressure under control or they wouldn't be able to operate. Well the only way I know how to do that is lose weight and excersise. So I know myself well enough to know I have no will power. My husband lives on Sugar, he's like 6' and weighs maybe 140lbs. So I decided that I needed to be drastic. So I looked into a diet clinic called Dr. Bernsteins. This place monitors you very closely and guarentee's 10lbs a month but you can lose up to 20lbs or more. So far it's been a month plus 3 days for me and I have lost 27lbs. I don't feel hungry like I usually do, I don't feel weighed down and it has become almost a social thing in my life with going to the clinic three times a week. You get to know the nurses and they get to know you. They test your urine on almost every visit, if your burning well they will treat you by not making you pee in a cup. If your not burning that means your not following their diet and they will lecture you, gives you that extra incentive. So far the only negatives I have experience is the fact that I am always COLD! Oh and that my wedding rings keep falling off. A lot of people call this a starvation diet, but frankly I very, very seldom find myself able to eat all the foods they tell me I can eat, I find I force myself to eat most of the time. My stomach is no longer telling me to eat, my head is. It's still hard at home with all the sugar around, mostly now that christmas is getting closer. I have a goal that by New years I need to lose another 13lbs at least, So I need to stay focussed and work my ass off. I even talked my husband into letting me move my excersise bike down to the living room so that I can bike while watching TV, instead of sitting on the couch. Now I am even thinking about a job switch. Hummmm! Anyway I am hoping for the best, I just need to stay encoraged right?

Tyra (The Tyrant)

This Dog is amazing, she's smart, loyal, friendly, energetic, always up for a good time with a Frisbee. She's a Pure Breed Icelandic Dog. She has really good coloring but she is a bit short for her breed, she's only 14 3/4" at shoulder height. The curly, fluffy tail is great, no wagging tail to know everything down in your house. She has now competed in 3 tournaments of Flyball. She loves it almost as much as she loves the attention. Tyra actually means white markings on tail in Icelandic, but we think Tyrant suites her much better.

Vindur (the Vindicator)

This will be our newest addition to the family, he's only 5 weeks old now so we wont get him for at least another 3 weeks. He's also a Pure bread Icelandic Dog. My husbands intention is to bread our Tyra. Vindur which means "wind" in Icelandic is of a rare blood line so should be a good male stud dog.

Tolerance:
I am not sure if it was just that I was way too naive when I was younger or if I am just getting less tolerant as I get older. I have always tried to maintain contact with people that at one time meant something to me, as a friend, acquaintance or just someone who impacted my life is some way. I look back and see how much effort I put into maintaining this contact, and for what? So I can here from them once in a blue moon? I am just getting tired of seeing how they never make an effort to see me unless it's convenient. So I am on a quest to make new friends, and forget about the old. I want friends who want to spend time with me, see me, do things with me. Like I have this one friend, who I have the opportunity to see maybe once every couple of years. About 3 years ago I was down his way and told him months in advance that I wanted to stop to see him and visit. We had been camping for a week straight and were looking forward to a couple of days in the big city, hoping my friend would take us out on the town to hit a few bars and maybe even a band since we didn't know the city at all and were lost on our own. So what happens, we come into town, I call him up and he tells me that he's on his way out of town to go camping with some buddies (that he sees ALL the time). So I said fine and we even made the effort and drove out to where he was camping for a few hours. I guess if we were in gear to do some more camping right then maybe things would have been different, but that hadn't been our plan, plus the fact that after we left the city in another couple of days we were going to be camping for another week anyway. I had even arranged our schedule so that we could be intown on the weekend to have plenty of opportunity to get reacquainted. Then 2 years later again I was going to be near by for a week and hinted that he should try to come by and he said he was too busy and it was too far to go, but then I keep hearing how he goes way out of his way too see other friends of ours when ever they go by to visit, so why am I so out of the loop? Is it I am just not cool enough anymore, now that I have left the drunken madness and music scene behind and become a career success? All I wanted was a weekend to spend in the life that I left behind and I feel he denied me that out of spite. I know that's silly, it's most likely just a case of nothing in common anymore, but that's mostly because we never see each other anymore. And don't get me started on the amount of times I here through the grape vine of him being in town, does he even think to see if I am interested in hooking up for a night of madness? No. Oh well this is life, things change.
But like I said I am on a quest to make new friends. If anyone has any suggestions on how to do this I am all ears!

Relationships
Well can any relationship be PERFECT?
There is always something you would change, or wish differently. How do you know when what you have is good enough...
Should anything just be good enough?
It doesn't mean you love a person less or more because of one trait or aspect of the relationship which is 'undesirable' But when should you draw the line at what is 'FIXABLE' and what you would have to live with should you choose this relationship for Everlasting.
I decided that there was some area's that needed fixing in my own relationship and decided if you need something done, and done right, do it yourself. I am not much of an initiator, and to any who know me, know this to be commonly true, not because I can't or don't want too, just usually would rather go with the flow and let things happen as the fates ordained. So this past weekend was an experiment. I initiated and made things happen, got things done like I have never done in my relationship before and I was met with first pleasure, enjoyment, gratitude and then suspicion.
I got why the change? What's up? Something happen? Didn't help that the week previously my husband had been away the whole time in a different city. So then I felt he was pushing me away, for he didn't understand what was going on, why the change.
It's like this in any thing. You dress up rather then your normal casual workware and people ask "What you have a job interview today or something?" or you do anything different with your hair and people automatically suspect you must have a reason other then just feeling like it. It's like no one ever expects anyone to do anything out of the ordinary without ulterior motives. What a sad time we live in.
No wonder in the past anyone 'different' has been ridiculed by society, if the general public is so stunned by a person simple changing the way they do their hair, then how are they going to handle a person outside the 'rules' of society norm.
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A Man in Pain...
So my husband is in the hospital right now, 3 hours away. It's only a minnor surgury to remove a pin and wire out of his knee from an earlier operation 3 months ago. But I still feel really guilty about not being able to be there for him. Not much I can dit. We have a friend who is going to Drive him half way so that I can bring him home this evening and take care of him. And as all you women know, MEN can be such whiners when they are in a little bit of pain. My husband can be such a grouchy whinner that it's unbelievable. I laugh at him for he expects his knee to be as good as it was before it ever got hurt. Like get a grip on reality. It's like getting something installed on your vehicle after market. It's just never as good. Functunal but not the same.

Work is work! We just transfered most of our work to be completed in India, so now I get to watch over their work. Fun! I would rather be doing the work myself.

We found a team for our Dog so that she can get back into practicing for Flyball. Should be a lot of fun, for her anyway. The first time I ran with her at a practice, she tripped me and I landed right on my ass.

I found a Jazz club here that I really want to go check out but now with my husband laid out and on crutches again, dancing will have to be put on hold unfortunately. I'm am really hoping though that he will be recovered enough by summer to go to the mountains and do some hiking. I would like to take a week off and just hike through the mountains.

Hummm! What else is new? Can't really think of much. Still need to find new friends here in Calgary, most of the old one's thta I had the last time I lived here got lives now :-)

Well I should get back to work.