Well this message has been long over due.
I got down to 158lbs in April 2006 and then I went on Vacation to Spain and I came back Preganant. So I had to go off my hormone meds and my diet cold turkey and my body ended up gaining weight no matter how healthy I ate. So basically by then end of my pregnancy I was 277 lbs. Ouch! Now I am trying again but I am finding it a lot harder this time because I no longer have to motivation of trying to have children helping me along. Plus the fact that everytime I try to start the diet I was on that I lost all that weight with I end up nausious and dizzy and having blood sugar attacks thta I just can't seem to get past. So I am having a hard time. So I have decided to forget losing weight and I am going to try and get into shape instead. I just recently bought myself a tredmill and a yoga mat. Lets see how this goes. I might not lose weight but I think the better shape I get the more energy I will have and the more active I will gett hat sooner or later the weight should start coming off or at least I will feel better right?
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Well I have now been on this diet for 5 months and I am starting to see the end of the tunnel. I only have 12 more pounds to reach my goal. I started this particular diet 5 months ago at 230.8, but technically started dieting a year earlier at 255lbs. so over all I have lost about 93lbs in just over a year. Now the true test comes when I need to go off the diet and start living normally again and not gain the weight back, Right?
This is a picture I took of myself last week, My husband thinks I am nuts for taking picture's but to tell you the truth, I just don't feel like I have lost that weight and I keep hoping that looking at picture's of myself will make my mind realise it which will enable me the determination to keep it off if I believe it made a difference. I have notice people treat me differently. People are so much nicer to you when your thinner! Like I mentioned in my december post that I was considering a job change, well I did leave the company I was working with and I have found this company I get a completely different feeling from people then anywhere else I have worked. People I don't know stop and talk to me, say hello, men hope the elevator door open instead of closing in my face, people let me exit elevators or go through doors first, they are just "more polite" So now my biggest hurdles are finding cloths that fit. As you can see by the photo my size 10 clothing is getting too big. Though considering I started at a size 22, I am so happy to be able to walk into ANY clothing store and find cloths that fit! It's great! Now just to make that last 12 lbs come off quicker! Well till next time...
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Weight Loss
Well I was scheduled for an operation on the 23rd of January, 2006 to have my reproductive system fixed. My husband and I have been trying for almost three years to start a family and have had no success, I haven't even ovulated in that time. So the Doctor told me that I had to get my blood pressure under control or they wouldn't be able to operate. Well the only way I know how to do that is lose weight and excersise. So I know myself well enough to know I have no will power. My husband lives on Sugar, he's like 6' and weighs maybe 140lbs. So I decided that I needed to be drastic. So I looked into a diet clinic called Dr. Bernsteins. This place monitors you very closely and guarentee's 10lbs a month but you can lose up to 20lbs or more. So far it's been a month plus 3 days for me and I have lost 27lbs. I don't feel hungry like I usually do, I don't feel weighed down and it has become almost a social thing in my life with going to the clinic three times a week. You get to know the nurses and they get to know you. They test your urine on almost every visit, if your burning well they will treat you by not making you pee in a cup. If your not burning that means your not following their diet and they will lecture you, gives you that extra incentive. So far the only negatives I have experience is the fact that I am always COLD! Oh and that my wedding rings keep falling off. A lot of people call this a starvation diet, but frankly I very, very seldom find myself able to eat all the foods they tell me I can eat, I find I force myself to eat most of the time. My stomach is no longer telling me to eat, my head is. It's still hard at home with all the sugar around, mostly now that christmas is getting closer. I have a goal that by New years I need to lose another 13lbs at least, So I need to stay focussed and work my ass off. I even talked my husband into letting me move my excersise bike down to the living room so that I can bike while watching TV, instead of sitting on the couch. Now I am even thinking about a job switch. Hummmm! Anyway I am hoping for the best, I just need to stay encoraged right?
Well I was scheduled for an operation on the 23rd of January, 2006 to have my reproductive system fixed. My husband and I have been trying for almost three years to start a family and have had no success, I haven't even ovulated in that time. So the Doctor told me that I had to get my blood pressure under control or they wouldn't be able to operate. Well the only way I know how to do that is lose weight and excersise. So I know myself well enough to know I have no will power. My husband lives on Sugar, he's like 6' and weighs maybe 140lbs. So I decided that I needed to be drastic. So I looked into a diet clinic called Dr. Bernsteins. This place monitors you very closely and guarentee's 10lbs a month but you can lose up to 20lbs or more. So far it's been a month plus 3 days for me and I have lost 27lbs. I don't feel hungry like I usually do, I don't feel weighed down and it has become almost a social thing in my life with going to the clinic three times a week. You get to know the nurses and they get to know you. They test your urine on almost every visit, if your burning well they will treat you by not making you pee in a cup. If your not burning that means your not following their diet and they will lecture you, gives you that extra incentive. So far the only negatives I have experience is the fact that I am always COLD! Oh and that my wedding rings keep falling off. A lot of people call this a starvation diet, but frankly I very, very seldom find myself able to eat all the foods they tell me I can eat, I find I force myself to eat most of the time. My stomach is no longer telling me to eat, my head is. It's still hard at home with all the sugar around, mostly now that christmas is getting closer. I have a goal that by New years I need to lose another 13lbs at least, So I need to stay focussed and work my ass off. I even talked my husband into letting me move my excersise bike down to the living room so that I can bike while watching TV, instead of sitting on the couch. Now I am even thinking about a job switch. Hummmm! Anyway I am hoping for the best, I just need to stay encoraged right?
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Tyra (The Tyrant)This Dog is amazing, she's smart, loyal, friendly, energetic, always up for a good time with a Frisbee. She's a Pure Breed Icelandic Dog. She has really good coloring but she is a bit short for her breed, she's only 14 3/4" at shoulder height. The curly, fluffy tail is great, no wagging tail to know everything down in your house. She has now competed in 3 tournaments of Flyball. She loves it almost as much as she loves the attention. Tyra actually means white markings on tail in Icelandic, but we think Tyrant suites her much better.
Vindur (the Vindicator)
Vindur (the Vindicator)This will be our newest addition to the family, he's only 5 weeks old now so we wont get him for at least another 3 weeks. He's also a Pure bread Icelandic Dog. My husbands intention is to bread our Tyra. Vindur which means "wind" in Icelandic is of a rare blood line so should be a good male stud dog.
Tolerance:
I am not sure if it was just that I was way too naive when I was younger or if I am just getting less tolerant as I get older. I have always tried to maintain contact with people that at one time meant something to me, as a friend, acquaintance or just someone who impacted my life is some way. I look back and see how much effort I put into maintaining this contact, and for what? So I can here from them once in a blue moon? I am just getting tired of seeing how they never make an effort to see me unless it's convenient. So I am on a quest to make new friends, and forget about the old. I want friends who want to spend time with me, see me, do things with me. Like I have this one friend, who I have the opportunity to see maybe once every couple of years. About 3 years ago I was down his way and told him months in advance that I wanted to stop to see him and visit. We had been camping for a week straight and were looking forward to a couple of days in the big city, hoping my friend would take us out on the town to hit a few bars and maybe even a band since we didn't know the city at all and were lost on our own. So what happens, we come into town, I call him up and he tells me that he's on his way out of town to go camping with some buddies (that he sees ALL the time). So I said fine and we even made the effort and drove out to where he was camping for a few hours. I guess if we were in gear to do some more camping right then maybe things would have been different, but that hadn't been our plan, plus the fact that after we left the city in another couple of days we were going to be camping for another week anyway. I had even arranged our schedule so that we could be intown on the weekend to have plenty of opportunity to get reacquainted. Then 2 years later again I was going to be near by for a week and hinted that he should try to come by and he said he was too busy and it was too far to go, but then I keep hearing how he goes way out of his way too see other friends of ours when ever they go by to visit, so why am I so out of the loop? Is it I am just not cool enough anymore, now that I have left the drunken madness and music scene behind and become a career success? All I wanted was a weekend to spend in the life that I left behind and I feel he denied me that out of spite. I know that's silly, it's most likely just a case of nothing in common anymore, but that's mostly because we never see each other anymore. And don't get me started on the amount of times I here through the grape vine of him being in town, does he even think to see if I am interested in hooking up for a night of madness? No. Oh well this is life, things change.
But like I said I am on a quest to make new friends. If anyone has any suggestions on how to do this I am all ears!
I am not sure if it was just that I was way too naive when I was younger or if I am just getting less tolerant as I get older. I have always tried to maintain contact with people that at one time meant something to me, as a friend, acquaintance or just someone who impacted my life is some way. I look back and see how much effort I put into maintaining this contact, and for what? So I can here from them once in a blue moon? I am just getting tired of seeing how they never make an effort to see me unless it's convenient. So I am on a quest to make new friends, and forget about the old. I want friends who want to spend time with me, see me, do things with me. Like I have this one friend, who I have the opportunity to see maybe once every couple of years. About 3 years ago I was down his way and told him months in advance that I wanted to stop to see him and visit. We had been camping for a week straight and were looking forward to a couple of days in the big city, hoping my friend would take us out on the town to hit a few bars and maybe even a band since we didn't know the city at all and were lost on our own. So what happens, we come into town, I call him up and he tells me that he's on his way out of town to go camping with some buddies (that he sees ALL the time). So I said fine and we even made the effort and drove out to where he was camping for a few hours. I guess if we were in gear to do some more camping right then maybe things would have been different, but that hadn't been our plan, plus the fact that after we left the city in another couple of days we were going to be camping for another week anyway. I had even arranged our schedule so that we could be intown on the weekend to have plenty of opportunity to get reacquainted. Then 2 years later again I was going to be near by for a week and hinted that he should try to come by and he said he was too busy and it was too far to go, but then I keep hearing how he goes way out of his way too see other friends of ours when ever they go by to visit, so why am I so out of the loop? Is it I am just not cool enough anymore, now that I have left the drunken madness and music scene behind and become a career success? All I wanted was a weekend to spend in the life that I left behind and I feel he denied me that out of spite. I know that's silly, it's most likely just a case of nothing in common anymore, but that's mostly because we never see each other anymore. And don't get me started on the amount of times I here through the grape vine of him being in town, does he even think to see if I am interested in hooking up for a night of madness? No. Oh well this is life, things change.
But like I said I am on a quest to make new friends. If anyone has any suggestions on how to do this I am all ears!
Monday, May 02, 2005
Relationships
Well can any relationship be PERFECT?
There is always something you would change, or wish differently. How do you know when what you have is good enough...
Should anything just be good enough?
It doesn't mean you love a person less or more because of one trait or aspect of the relationship which is 'undesirable' But when should you draw the line at what is 'FIXABLE' and what you would have to live with should you choose this relationship for Everlasting.
I decided that there was some area's that needed fixing in my own relationship and decided if you need something done, and done right, do it yourself. I am not much of an initiator, and to any who know me, know this to be commonly true, not because I can't or don't want too, just usually would rather go with the flow and let things happen as the fates ordained. So this past weekend was an experiment. I initiated and made things happen, got things done like I have never done in my relationship before and I was met with first pleasure, enjoyment, gratitude and then suspicion.
I got why the change? What's up? Something happen? Didn't help that the week previously my husband had been away the whole time in a different city. So then I felt he was pushing me away, for he didn't understand what was going on, why the change.
It's like this in any thing. You dress up rather then your normal casual workware and people ask "What you have a job interview today or something?" or you do anything different with your hair and people automatically suspect you must have a reason other then just feeling like it. It's like no one ever expects anyone to do anything out of the ordinary without ulterior motives. What a sad time we live in.
No wonder in the past anyone 'different' has been ridiculed by society, if the general public is so stunned by a person simple changing the way they do their hair, then how are they going to handle a person outside the 'rules' of society norm.
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Well can any relationship be PERFECT?
There is always something you would change, or wish differently. How do you know when what you have is good enough...
Should anything just be good enough?
It doesn't mean you love a person less or more because of one trait or aspect of the relationship which is 'undesirable' But when should you draw the line at what is 'FIXABLE' and what you would have to live with should you choose this relationship for Everlasting.
I decided that there was some area's that needed fixing in my own relationship and decided if you need something done, and done right, do it yourself. I am not much of an initiator, and to any who know me, know this to be commonly true, not because I can't or don't want too, just usually would rather go with the flow and let things happen as the fates ordained. So this past weekend was an experiment. I initiated and made things happen, got things done like I have never done in my relationship before and I was met with first pleasure, enjoyment, gratitude and then suspicion.
I got why the change? What's up? Something happen? Didn't help that the week previously my husband had been away the whole time in a different city. So then I felt he was pushing me away, for he didn't understand what was going on, why the change.
It's like this in any thing. You dress up rather then your normal casual workware and people ask "What you have a job interview today or something?" or you do anything different with your hair and people automatically suspect you must have a reason other then just feeling like it. It's like no one ever expects anyone to do anything out of the ordinary without ulterior motives. What a sad time we live in.
No wonder in the past anyone 'different' has been ridiculed by society, if the general public is so stunned by a person simple changing the way they do their hair, then how are they going to handle a person outside the 'rules' of society norm.
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Thursday, January 13, 2005
A Man in Pain...
So my husband is in the hospital right now, 3 hours away. It's only a minnor surgury to remove a pin and wire out of his knee from an earlier operation 3 months ago. But I still feel really guilty about not being able to be there for him. Not much I can dit. We have a friend who is going to Drive him half way so that I can bring him home this evening and take care of him. And as all you women know, MEN can be such whiners when they are in a little bit of pain. My husband can be such a grouchy whinner that it's unbelievable. I laugh at him for he expects his knee to be as good as it was before it ever got hurt. Like get a grip on reality. It's like getting something installed on your vehicle after market. It's just never as good. Functunal but not the same.
Work is work! We just transfered most of our work to be completed in India, so now I get to watch over their work. Fun! I would rather be doing the work myself.
We found a team for our Dog so that she can get back into practicing for Flyball. Should be a lot of fun, for her anyway. The first time I ran with her at a practice, she tripped me and I landed right on my ass.
I found a Jazz club here that I really want to go check out but now with my husband laid out and on crutches again, dancing will have to be put on hold unfortunately. I'm am really hoping though that he will be recovered enough by summer to go to the mountains and do some hiking. I would like to take a week off and just hike through the mountains.
Hummm! What else is new? Can't really think of much. Still need to find new friends here in Calgary, most of the old one's thta I had the last time I lived here got lives now :-)
Well I should get back to work.
So my husband is in the hospital right now, 3 hours away. It's only a minnor surgury to remove a pin and wire out of his knee from an earlier operation 3 months ago. But I still feel really guilty about not being able to be there for him. Not much I can dit. We have a friend who is going to Drive him half way so that I can bring him home this evening and take care of him. And as all you women know, MEN can be such whiners when they are in a little bit of pain. My husband can be such a grouchy whinner that it's unbelievable. I laugh at him for he expects his knee to be as good as it was before it ever got hurt. Like get a grip on reality. It's like getting something installed on your vehicle after market. It's just never as good. Functunal but not the same.
Work is work! We just transfered most of our work to be completed in India, so now I get to watch over their work. Fun! I would rather be doing the work myself.
We found a team for our Dog so that she can get back into practicing for Flyball. Should be a lot of fun, for her anyway. The first time I ran with her at a practice, she tripped me and I landed right on my ass.
I found a Jazz club here that I really want to go check out but now with my husband laid out and on crutches again, dancing will have to be put on hold unfortunately. I'm am really hoping though that he will be recovered enough by summer to go to the mountains and do some hiking. I would like to take a week off and just hike through the mountains.
Hummm! What else is new? Can't really think of much. Still need to find new friends here in Calgary, most of the old one's thta I had the last time I lived here got lives now :-)
Well I should get back to work.
Monday, November 22, 2004
Politics
Man I am really starting to get tired of politics lately. We have now had every possible election in the last few months. As of today it will be over for a while thankfully. I am tired of hearing the slanderous campaigns. I am tired of hearing each party spend all their time and money on slashing the other party instead of talking about the issues. I think they do that because in reality they all have too similar of views and want the public to think otherwise, for then they might smarten up and vote for the more honest and sincere person instead of for a particular party no matter who the loser leading the party may be. I happen to not really have anything against Ralph Klein, he is one of the few leaders that actually did what he said he was going to do, to the shock of the people. Well we need more people like him. I might not agree with what he did but we voted him in after he said what he was going to do so who are we to complain, RIGHT!
Man I am really starting to get tired of politics lately. We have now had every possible election in the last few months. As of today it will be over for a while thankfully. I am tired of hearing the slanderous campaigns. I am tired of hearing each party spend all their time and money on slashing the other party instead of talking about the issues. I think they do that because in reality they all have too similar of views and want the public to think otherwise, for then they might smarten up and vote for the more honest and sincere person instead of for a particular party no matter who the loser leading the party may be. I happen to not really have anything against Ralph Klein, he is one of the few leaders that actually did what he said he was going to do, to the shock of the people. Well we need more people like him. I might not agree with what he did but we voted him in after he said what he was going to do so who are we to complain, RIGHT!
Thursday, November 18, 2004
One day left
I feel like a very repeatitive drone! All I seem to think or talk about lately is the move! Well it's tomorrow! The movers should actually be arriving at my home in Edmonton as we speak, to load all our CRAP into a big truck. They keep it over night and bring it to Calgary sometime tomorrow. So basically that mean I get to sit in a completely empty house and twiddle my thumbs. Man contractors can be such a pain. I am sure everyone at sometime at least once have heard these words "We will arive sometime between 9am and 4pm" At least sometiems they will narrow that down to the AM or PM but come on, how hard is it to schedule apointments, or at least call an hour or so ahead when you have a better idea, that would give you plenty of time to get home in time if you have other things to do. Like come on, I have to spend the whole morning at home because sometime that morning you will arrive to do a 5 minute job. Give me a break!
I did find a cool web site today, seems to be only available in the states though www.emove.com, it's basically a site where students can list their services to make some extra cash by helping people move, they will pack your stuff, or load, or drive your u-haul or what ever else you need. I found the link on U-haul's web site. Kind of a neat business idea. I wonder if the company who manages and placed the website take a portion of the earnings people who get work off the site get. hummm?
I get my Dog tomorrow, tomorrow, it all happens tomorrow!!!!
I feel like a very repeatitive drone! All I seem to think or talk about lately is the move! Well it's tomorrow! The movers should actually be arriving at my home in Edmonton as we speak, to load all our CRAP into a big truck. They keep it over night and bring it to Calgary sometime tomorrow. So basically that mean I get to sit in a completely empty house and twiddle my thumbs. Man contractors can be such a pain. I am sure everyone at sometime at least once have heard these words "We will arive sometime between 9am and 4pm" At least sometiems they will narrow that down to the AM or PM but come on, how hard is it to schedule apointments, or at least call an hour or so ahead when you have a better idea, that would give you plenty of time to get home in time if you have other things to do. Like come on, I have to spend the whole morning at home because sometime that morning you will arrive to do a 5 minute job. Give me a break!
I did find a cool web site today, seems to be only available in the states though www.emove.com, it's basically a site where students can list their services to make some extra cash by helping people move, they will pack your stuff, or load, or drive your u-haul or what ever else you need. I found the link on U-haul's web site. Kind of a neat business idea. I wonder if the company who manages and placed the website take a portion of the earnings people who get work off the site get. hummm?
I get my Dog tomorrow, tomorrow, it all happens tomorrow!!!!
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Moving...
Man the last time we bought a house everything was soooooo... simple. We paid for it, we moved in. This time we decide to buy a new house and now we are having to deal with contractors, and builder's and warrentee's and appliance installations of all things. And don't get me started on Blinds!!!! Then next spring it will be the fence, deck and landscaping. So it sounds like the next few years are going to be caotic! should be loads of Fun!
Man the last time we bought a house everything was soooooo... simple. We paid for it, we moved in. This time we decide to buy a new house and now we are having to deal with contractors, and builder's and warrentee's and appliance installations of all things. And don't get me started on Blinds!!!! Then next spring it will be the fence, deck and landscaping. So it sounds like the next few years are going to be caotic! should be loads of Fun!
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